Challenge Day #5: Your Parents

Today’s theme feels a bit emotional. It’s about parents. I feel a bit emotional because yesterday one of my friends lose her father. I can only write her a message that I wish I could hug her. I know there are no words that can console her because losing a parent is the worst thing I can imagine.

If I had to write about my parents, first of all I want to expressing my grateful because both of them are still alive (and healthy). I might not the best daughter they have, but I do my best not to disappoint them in various ways.

My dad is my personal Iron Man. No, he isn’t a billionaire like Tony Starks, but he always provide everything I need. He isn’t the type that showing nor saying anything about loving his children. In fact, up until now, I still got trouble try to understand how he sees the world. This makes our relationship going through rough road. There’s a time when my dad poring all of his anger JUST on me and act like he is fine to his other children. This things often burden me and makes me mad.

There’s also time when his behavior made me think I wasn’t worth as child. But my sisters always told me that I shouldn’t take it seriously because my dad never meant it. But… You know… I’m the sensitive type of person. I won’t be able to do their advice.

Nowadays, our relationship is going better. He never yell at me anymore. There isn’t any little thing that make him throwing his temper to my. He still criticizing, but it’s bareable. And I still trying to understand and not confront anything he did (or say). This means… In order our for father-daughter relationship to work out, someone needs to spend more listening (even if it’s destroying from the inside).

As for my Mom, she is my number one role model. I learn how to creatively cook anything I eat from her. It’s not that her cook is terrible. In fact, she is the best cook in the world. It’s me that keeping too much creativity (and interest) that makes my food sometimes only taste delicious to me.

Besides cooking, I learn soooo many things from my Mom. Patient and selflessness. If we live in Divergent world, my Mom would be from Abnegation. So… If people ask me how can I be so patient facing everything, the answer is my Mom train me all of my life.

Still, I want to say that even that my parents aren’t the perfect parents in the world. To me, they are the kind of parents I need. They teach me so many things. The give me everything I need. I might not good for showing them my feeling, but still… I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.