Challenge Day #16: Someone I Miss

I took a pretty long time to contemplate about what should ai write on this theme. That’s why I missed one day ( I supposed to post this yesterday). I had a hard time figuring out what to write because… I’m not missing anyone. That’s what I thought.

But then, this morning, when I open my Facebook account, I found a notification about what’s been I shared the whole time. Then I found this conversation.

This is a conversation between my three best friends from different levels of education. The only man in this conversation is my high school best friend, while the two women here are my college best friends. The funny thing is, they definitely didn't know each other, haven’t met one another. But they get along when I ask something that grabs their attention.

KPOP!

Yes… I was asking about Super Junior to them and then they started to talk about their favorite girl group, which is Girls Generation. That time I didn’t know and didn’t have any interest to KPop. I asked because Yesung sings a song from one of my favorite K-Drama, Cinderella’s Stepsister.

These dorks who I love the most often talking about KPop but I didn’t bother at all. In the end, when I finally started to enjoy Kpop, they guide me into them (yeah… That’s what friends are for).

I often chat with one of them. The one that is called Glo by the other. I became her fangirling buddy because, at our ages, it looks like only both of us that still talking about KPop so passionately. Well… To be honest, we often spoke about a different thing (she with her EXO and me with my ballad artist). We often changing Infos so I can introduce her to my genre while… She just introduces me, but sometimes I often forget about what she said about those boybands (because boyband isn’t my thing).

As for the other (Dewi), I already lose contact with her since we graduate from college. I didn’t know what went wrong (or not), but everything seems tearing apart between me and her. She almost never replies to my message (anywhere I try to contact her) and she never tries to make a casual conversation with me. I don’t want to think that our friendship ends up when our college is done, but it feels like that to me.

Last but not least, the only male best friend I have (until now). In high school, me and he had another best friend that still keeps in contact now. But me and her (our high school friend) still keep contacting with each other through WhatsApp. While this guy… Went busy and the last time I met him is… Around… Two or three years ago. On our breakfast meeting on Ramadhan. Since then, we only exchange one or two messages and never meet offline.

I wish… This pandemic will disappear soon. So I van meet them again. Exchanging a lot of stories, fangirling together or just to have meals together. As an introvert, being miss another human being is a rare condition, right? So… I really hope, my wish would come true. I hope this pandemic will end soon so I can meet these people I missed the most right now.

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Challenge Day #8: The Power of Music

Uuuhh… I’m so excited about this theme. I got to talked about thing I love. Music. It’s not that I am a musician, but I do enjoy music companion so much. And because the them is the power of music, I’m not gonna write a review, but rather I want to write what kind of power music has and what it has done to me.

I started to enjoy music as a companion since I was in primary school. I did listen a lot of music since earlier than that. But… The one I do enjoy because I choose which music I wanted to listen started at later years on primary school (when I was 10 or 11 years old). Because I had 2 older sister that already reach their teenage age, I dragged to have a similar taste to them. I listened to 80’s and 90’s music a lot, thanks to them. But when we growing up, we decided to choose our own fave genre. My eldest sister strict with her pop genre, my older sister enjoy rock music a lot and myself found RnB music more pleasant to listen.

I listened to a lot of RnB and Hiphop music much. But I prefer RnB is the best suit for me. Blue, Destiny’s Child, Brandy & Monica, Alicia Keys, Chris Brown, Ne Yo, Usher, Black Eyed Peas, etc is my preferences in music in that time. I even remember that Blue’s first album All Rise is the first album that I bought with my money and I collected all of their albums (that happened before digitalization era). But these several years my music preferences has turn from western to eastern, especially Kpop. I still have RnB as my favorit genre. But there also ballad that caught my ear easily.

Earlier on this post I mention that music was my companion. It still is. Music is a friend. A companion. Wherever I go, whatever I do. I used to listen to music 24/7, even in my sleep. This is probably the main reason I can maintain my focus while doing anything else. I used to listen to anything 24/7.

One of my bad habit is keep the earphone plug into my ears everytime. There was a time when my friend feel a bit annoyed and confused when we did a discussion but I looked like I listening to my earphone because my earphone plug on my ear. I have to explain to her that this is the way to make me focus on our discussion becaus if I put my earphone down, I might easily distracted by simple and meaningless sounds around me (bacause I have a hypersensitivity with sounds, sound pollution is the worst to my attention span).

I also have a lot of unique experience with music. Once I got a panic attack because one of my team member can’t attend our presentation at class. One of us have to cover her part and explained it to our lecturer. My other friend told me to cover that part because she hadn’t understand it (actually, neither do I). That time when the panic attacking me, I got out from our class, put on my earplug and listen to one of my favorite group songs. Guess what? That panic attack slowly faded away. I did the presentation smoothly and out group got the best points.

The other unique experience I had with music is music actually can make me focus on my emotion. I have these playlist that contain different type of theme to express my feelings. I had a angry playlist, broken heart playlist, proposing playlist and even a compilation of sweet song to describing what it feels like to fall in love. There was one time when I felt burn out and need to cry to relieve my stress. But I can’t. After talked to my bestfriend, she told me to watch a sad movie or listen to a sad song. I choose to do the second one. I listen to one of my fave singer song and suddenly I crying like a baby. Those cortisol I kept in my brain leaving me as I listening to sad broken heart song.

https://youtu.be/lpLZzqLKWBc

Because of their power, I have a trouble keeping a distance to music. But nowadays, I successfully keep my distance to earphone. I only need it when I sleep, when I need a better focus or when I need a companion (from a non living things). The power of the music I felt is even though it isn’t a living things, It has a big presence as much as a living things to me. If someone asked me what thing I will bring I have to live in a desserted island, I definitely bring music with me.

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Challenge Day #2: Things That Makes You Happy

Hmm… Let’s see…

Things that makes me happy? I guess I have a lot in mind. Because I am easily impressed and get excited along small things. I will try to choose 4 things that makes me happy.

Those are: rain, chocolate, cat and music.

Rain

Have you ever heard about “pluviophile”? The word “pluviophile” is a combination of two Latin words: “Pluvia” which means rain and “Phile”, a slang word used to describe a lover of something. The simple pluviophile meaning is: (n) a lover of rain; someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days (https://pluviophile.net/pluviophile-meaning/). I always enjoy when the rain come. Listen to it’s sounds, smell the scent of it or looking at how the water touch the earth. Once when I sick and I can’t sleep, I looked for ‘nature noise’ playlist on Spotify. It has rain sound. Just by listen to that sound reduce the pain. And thanks to that sound, I can finally get my recovery sleep that I need.

Chocolate

I am a 'sweet tooth’ person. I always enjoy eating sweet treats, especially chocolate. The choco bars, cakes, candies and also chocolate drinks. Everytime I go to St*bu**s, I order their chocolate drink, because their chocolate drink have the best taste among others. I also love making (and then eating it) choco dessert box (choco pudding + chocolate flavored biscuit/cake + chocolate sauce). Scientifically speaking, eating choco bring a lot of benefits to our body. Consuming chocolate will help brain release serotonin (notes: this might happend with certain amount of choco and with the minimum 80% cocoa contain). So… There’s no doubt that chocolate can bring happiness to the person who eat it.

Cat

As a cat person, there’s no doubt that seeing cat (or play with them) can bring a lot of happiness. It’s been a while since I have a cat as pet (I’m too heartbroken b cause of the last cat I had died because of old age), but luckly one of my neighbors have half a dozen of cats in her house. They sometimes come to my house to play or just laying on the ground and fall asleep (their favorite spot are bushes in the garden in front of my house). There’s one time when this cat help me erase my stress. Beside their cute looks and behavior, cats also proven scientifically have the ability to release human stress. It is by listening to their purr, the sounds cats make when they feel comfortable enough around human.

Music

These several years, my music preference has turned from western pop to Korean ballad. I listen most to those 6 artist (Gilgu Bonggu, Mamamoo, LYn, Paul Kim, Jukjae and VIXX). It’s not just their music that brings happines to me. As an introvert person, online interaction is one way I can socialize with another human being. I am able to interact with other fans (especially international fans) of the artist I follow and making some friendship with them. That feels like having comforted by listen to the music and having conversations with another human being with same interest.

There’re also some other things that can bring happiness to me but I can’t mention them one by one (because it’s too much to mention). Writing this challenge turns out bring another happiness to me. Because I can unserstand what are things that can make me happy. It is a good thing to acknowledge what is your source of happiness. Because if the hard times hit you, you know what to do (or find) so you can bounce back and face those hard time with a smile.

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My Current Music Mood

https://open.spotify.com/track/0wKXfGgalZo8n7ooBj5ZWX?si=df4eec1599114ce2

비가 오면 생각이 나

네가 자주 했던 말

흥얼대는 내 목소리가

빗소릴 닮았다던

“When it rains, I remember what you used to say, that my voice resembles the sound of a humming rain…”

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That time I love Ongie's voice

Enjoying Mr.Marshmallow newest album while eating #marshmallow. They both sweet and creamy (｡'▽'｡)♡

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2PM - I Can't

This thing happened long time ago (about 1 year ago).

I love at the first listen to this song (even when I didn’t know who they are how good they are). I just love the beat and their voice. And here’s I find their English lyrics.

I CAN’T by 2PM

I’ll wait you Cuz I can’t forget your love
I think the tears flow when thinking about you

Deepening toward the I can’t stop Thinkin about your love
Can’t seem to forget everything you
Can’t seem to believe that if you come back

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I sleep on the nights you
Sometimes I can’t bear to tear herself as I cried

You are not only the world
The last thing you had nothing to lose

So I can’t forget your love

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

Have you ever tried to forget those things because there’s value to me
Last time reminding each and every precious to me as my breathing
So I can’t forget your love do you know that I need your love
I need your everything I need you back
Can not wait till you come back
come back to me

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait until I’m forever
I can’t forget your love
I’ll wait forever
Cuz I can’t I can’t forget your love

I just want a be with you
I just want a be with you

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