I started to enjoy music as a companion since I was in primary school. I did listen a lot of music since earlier than that. But… The one I do enjoy because I choose which music I wanted to listen started at later years on primary school (when I was 10 or 11 years old). Because I had 2 older sister that already reach their teenage age, I dragged to have a similar taste to them. I listened to 80’s and 90’s music a lot, thanks to them. But when we growing up, we decided to choose our own fave genre. My eldest sister strict with her pop genre, my older sister enjoy rock music a lot and myself found RnB music more pleasant to listen.
I listened to a lot of RnB and Hiphop music much. But I prefer RnB is the best suit for me. Blue, Destiny’s Child, Brandy & Monica, Alicia Keys, Chris Brown, Ne Yo, Usher, Black Eyed Peas, etc is my preferences in music in that time. I even remember that Blue’s first album All Rise is the first album that I bought with my money and I collected all of their albums (that happened before digitalization era). But these several years my music preferences has turn from western to eastern, especially Kpop. I still have RnB as my favorit genre. But there also ballad that caught my ear easily.
Earlier on this post I mention that music was my companion. It still is. Music is a friend. A companion. Wherever I go, whatever I do. I used to listen to music 24/7, even in my sleep. This is probably the main reason I can maintain my focus while doing anything else. I used to listen to anything 24/7.
One of my bad habit is keep the earphone plug into my ears everytime. There was a time when my friend feel a bit annoyed and confused when we did a discussion but I looked like I listening to my earphone because my earphone plug on my ear. I have to explain to her that this is the way to make me focus on our discussion becaus if I put my earphone down, I might easily distracted by simple and meaningless sounds around me (bacause I have a hypersensitivity with sounds, sound pollution is the worst to my attention span).
I also have a lot of unique experience with music. Once I got a panic attack because one of my team member can’t attend our presentation at class. One of us have to cover her part and explained it to our lecturer. My other friend told me to cover that part because she hadn’t understand it (actually, neither do I). That time when the panic attacking me, I got out from our class, put on my earplug and listen to one of my favorite group songs. Guess what? That panic attack slowly faded away. I did the presentation smoothly and out group got the best points.
The other unique experience I had with music is music actually can make me focus on my emotion. I have these playlist that contain different type of theme to express my feelings. I had a angry playlist, broken heart playlist, proposing playlist and even a compilation of sweet song to describing what it feels like to fall in love. There was one time when I felt burn out and need to cry to relieve my stress. But I can’t. After talked to my bestfriend, she told me to watch a sad movie or listen to a sad song. I choose to do the second one. I listen to one of my fave singer song and suddenly I crying like a baby. Those cortisol I kept in my brain leaving me as I listening to sad broken heart song.
Because of their power, I have a trouble keeping a distance to music. But nowadays, I successfully keep my distance to earphone. I only need it when I sleep, when I need a better focus or when I need a companion (from a non living things). The power of the music I felt is even though it isn’t a living things, It has a big presence as much as a living things to me. If someone asked me what thing I will bring I have to live in a desserted island, I definitely bring music with me.
