My Current Song Mood

나의 하루도 후회 없이
오늘을 사랑하기를
받은 마음 다 나눠줄 수 있기를
어제보다 오늘 더
나은 사람이 되기를 바라는 나

"I hope I will love today without regrets. I hope I can give back what I received. I hope I can be a better person than I was yesterday"

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My Current Music Mood

https://open.spotify.com/track/6bS26gRTUmX2e9HpIFyERe?si=b15ca8eba57649e5

어느새 넌 나의 행복이 되어서
내 세상은 그런 너로 가득해서
하루하루 지날수록
좋은 걸 어제보다 오늘 더

"You became my happiness before I realized it and you filled my entire world. The more time passes, the more I like you today than yesterday"

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Challenge Day #10: Your Best Friend

Today… The challenge wants me to talk about my best friend. Um… Which one? I have a lot of best friends here.

Music? We already talked about that.

Books? We will have a theme about this later.

My yarn and stash? They aren’t my best friend. They are my stress-reliever.

Aah! I know! Brownie! My teddy bear!

Aah… No. I bet they want us to talk about human best friend. Hahahaha… Let’s talk about that one. I will talk about best friend without revealing names (because I don’t want any of them read this and find that their name isn’t the one I mention in my post).

I actually realize this not long ago. I don’t have that many friends nor best friends. But… I definitely can distinguish them. Which people I percieve as my best friends and which people aren’t. How I do it is by sitting with them and having conversations. IF I can speak so many thing even without being asked and told them about what lies deep in my heart (my worries, my problem or MY FEELING), they are definitely my best friend. If not, then you are just a friend to me. This might sounds weird, but to me… It’s valid.

I always identify myself as sociopath. Not that I like to manipulate, deceit, aggressive, or can’t empathize toward others. I have difficulties to approach others. It’s a path(ology) on social(izing) (Pffffttt! Whatever it is! I’m introvert, I don’t like socializing).

This condition makes me barely have friends. I have that ability to communicate with others, getting to know others. I just not that easily to believe in anyone to put their name on my friendlist. I know, I have this life philosophy that totally different with how I deal with others ( “All human are innocent, until proven otherwise” ). But still… I can’t make everyone my best friend. Friend? Maybe. Best friend? Not so fast!

I happened to ask my middle high school students about “what is the main difference between friend and best friend?”. One of them told me that best friend having so much connection to ourself, while friend is just someone I know more than just a name or where they live. I actually agree with that. A best friend can speak so many words even without saying anything.

I realize this when a long time friend, which I thought she is one of my best friend called me and we’re having a chat on the phone. She talked about eeeevery single things happened in her life while I just listened to it and replying adequately. When she finished her stories, she often asked me, “how about you? What you’ve been up to?” And none of that words came out from my mouth. I never been able to answer to that kind of question. Sometimes I don’t think she is actually interested in my story, sometimes I think she just trying to make speech to give her time before she tell me another story of hers. I’m not hate it. There definitely a people that allowed you to have passive role and put you as listeners to all of their concern. But I might put it this way: “I am her best friend, she isn’t mine”.

A best friend to me is someone I can tell all of my thought. Sounds cliché, but it is so important to me. Without being asked, I can tell them everything. Even thoughts and things that appeared deep inside my mind. I have some of people that allowed me to become noisy, talkative and perhaps, the thought of me as a story teller. They are my best friend (even though I don’t know if I am their best friend or not). But when I have this kind of person treating me this way, I will try to keep them in my life, as long as I can. Don’t worry about me being an active listener to them. I always can do this part. It’s just I need to know the other person can do this role for me in order to make this friend-relationship works.

So… To people I called “My Best friend”. Thank you for listening to my thoughts, my concern, even small talks that reeeeally has no meaning. When you give me the opportunity to become myself without judge or say to my face, “My life is way more interesting that yours”, it’s the time that I would do anything to you. Because you make me feel I am something. I will give you my forever friendship, anything you need (as long as I am able to help you), until you betrayed it (I just wish that day wouldn’t never come). Until then… Let’s have this exciting friendship for a long time.

Thank you

And I love you♡

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Challenge Day #8: The Power of Music

Uuuhh… I’m so excited about this theme. I got to talked about thing I love. Music. It’s not that I am a musician, but I do enjoy music companion so much. And because the them is the power of music, I’m not gonna write a review, but rather I want to write what kind of power music has and what it has done to me.

I started to enjoy music as a companion since I was in primary school. I did listen a lot of music since earlier than that. But… The one I do enjoy because I choose which music I wanted to listen started at later years on primary school (when I was 10 or 11 years old). Because I had 2 older sister that already reach their teenage age, I dragged to have a similar taste to them. I listened to 80’s and 90’s music a lot, thanks to them. But when we growing up, we decided to choose our own fave genre. My eldest sister strict with her pop genre, my older sister enjoy rock music a lot and myself found RnB music more pleasant to listen.

I listened to a lot of RnB and Hiphop music much. But I prefer RnB is the best suit for me. Blue, Destiny’s Child, Brandy & Monica, Alicia Keys, Chris Brown, Ne Yo, Usher, Black Eyed Peas, etc is my preferences in music in that time. I even remember that Blue’s first album All Rise is the first album that I bought with my money and I collected all of their albums (that happened before digitalization era). But these several years my music preferences has turn from western to eastern, especially Kpop. I still have RnB as my favorit genre. But there also ballad that caught my ear easily.

Earlier on this post I mention that music was my companion. It still is. Music is a friend. A companion. Wherever I go, whatever I do. I used to listen to music 24/7, even in my sleep. This is probably the main reason I can maintain my focus while doing anything else. I used to listen to anything 24/7.

One of my bad habit is keep the earphone plug into my ears everytime. There was a time when my friend feel a bit annoyed and confused when we did a discussion but I looked like I listening to my earphone because my earphone plug on my ear. I have to explain to her that this is the way to make me focus on our discussion becaus if I put my earphone down, I might easily distracted by simple and meaningless sounds around me (bacause I have a hypersensitivity with sounds, sound pollution is the worst to my attention span).

I also have a lot of unique experience with music. Once I got a panic attack because one of my team member can’t attend our presentation at class. One of us have to cover her part and explained it to our lecturer. My other friend told me to cover that part because she hadn’t understand it (actually, neither do I). That time when the panic attacking me, I got out from our class, put on my earplug and listen to one of my favorite group songs. Guess what? That panic attack slowly faded away. I did the presentation smoothly and out group got the best points.

The other unique experience I had with music is music actually can make me focus on my emotion. I have these playlist that contain different type of theme to express my feelings. I had a angry playlist, broken heart playlist, proposing playlist and even a compilation of sweet song to describing what it feels like to fall in love. There was one time when I felt burn out and need to cry to relieve my stress. But I can’t. After talked to my bestfriend, she told me to watch a sad movie or listen to a sad song. I choose to do the second one. I listen to one of my fave singer song and suddenly I crying like a baby. Those cortisol I kept in my brain leaving me as I listening to sad broken heart song.

https://youtu.be/lpLZzqLKWBc

Because of their power, I have a trouble keeping a distance to music. But nowadays, I successfully keep my distance to earphone. I only need it when I sleep, when I need a better focus or when I need a companion (from a non living things). The power of the music I felt is even though it isn’t a living things, It has a big presence as much as a living things to me. If someone asked me what thing I will bring I have to live in a desserted island, I definitely bring music with me.

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Challenge Day #2: Things That Makes You Happy

Hmm… Let’s see…

Things that makes me happy? I guess I have a lot in mind. Because I am easily impressed and get excited along small things. I will try to choose 4 things that makes me happy.

Those are: rain, chocolate, cat and music.

Rain

Have you ever heard about “pluviophile”? The word “pluviophile” is a combination of two Latin words: “Pluvia” which means rain and “Phile”, a slang word used to describe a lover of something. The simple pluviophile meaning is: (n) a lover of rain; someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days (https://pluviophile.net/pluviophile-meaning/). I always enjoy when the rain come. Listen to it’s sounds, smell the scent of it or looking at how the water touch the earth. Once when I sick and I can’t sleep, I looked for ‘nature noise’ playlist on Spotify. It has rain sound. Just by listen to that sound reduce the pain. And thanks to that sound, I can finally get my recovery sleep that I need.

Chocolate

I am a 'sweet tooth’ person. I always enjoy eating sweet treats, especially chocolate. The choco bars, cakes, candies and also chocolate drinks. Everytime I go to St*bu**s, I order their chocolate drink, because their chocolate drink have the best taste among others. I also love making (and then eating it) choco dessert box (choco pudding + chocolate flavored biscuit/cake + chocolate sauce). Scientifically speaking, eating choco bring a lot of benefits to our body. Consuming chocolate will help brain release serotonin (notes: this might happend with certain amount of choco and with the minimum 80% cocoa contain). So… There’s no doubt that chocolate can bring happiness to the person who eat it.

Cat

As a cat person, there’s no doubt that seeing cat (or play with them) can bring a lot of happiness. It’s been a while since I have a cat as pet (I’m too heartbroken b cause of the last cat I had died because of old age), but luckly one of my neighbors have half a dozen of cats in her house. They sometimes come to my house to play or just laying on the ground and fall asleep (their favorite spot are bushes in the garden in front of my house). There’s one time when this cat help me erase my stress. Beside their cute looks and behavior, cats also proven scientifically have the ability to release human stress. It is by listening to their purr, the sounds cats make when they feel comfortable enough around human.

Music

These several years, my music preference has turned from western pop to Korean ballad. I listen most to those 6 artist (Gilgu Bonggu, Mamamoo, LYn, Paul Kim, Jukjae and VIXX). It’s not just their music that brings happines to me. As an introvert person, online interaction is one way I can socialize with another human being. I am able to interact with other fans (especially international fans) of the artist I follow and making some friendship with them. That feels like having comforted by listen to the music and having conversations with another human being with same interest.

There’re also some other things that can bring happiness to me but I can’t mention them one by one (because it’s too much to mention). Writing this challenge turns out bring another happiness to me. Because I can unserstand what are things that can make me happy. It is a good thing to acknowledge what is your source of happiness. Because if the hard times hit you, you know what to do (or find) so you can bounce back and face those hard time with a smile.

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Music Mood This Recently: Bonggu of Gilgu Bonggu (길구봉구)

It’s been a while since I post things about music. Well… I’ve been so into K-Music recently. 

Don’t get me wrong. I admit that I love boyband like 2AM, 2PM, or VIXX. But most of the time, I like to listen to non-idol groups like LYn, Gilgu Bonggu, Sung Si Kyung, Ailee, Tei, Na Yoon Kwon, and many like them. And since I’m here to talk about my music mood, I want to talk about this wonderful voice that I love recently. 

His Name is Bonggu. he debuted in 2013 with his duet partner Gilgu. Unlike typically K-Idol, this duo didn’t have that wonderful visual (typically slim and flawless face–sorry if this sounds a little bit bias), but they do have a veeeeeeery wonderful voice. And it’s been very hard for them to perform at the stage of music program on TV. So… while waiting for the opportunity to come, these duos do such a great thing outside the idol world. They become a vocal coach and other’s chorus singer. Names like LYn, Wheesung, Sung Si Kyung use Bonggu’s voice in their concert as a chorus singer. you can see their interview in Yu Hui Yeol’s Sketchbook Episode 355 (http://kshow123.net/show/sketchbook-of-youheeyeul/episode-355.html).

Well, I began to notice about this duo since Bonggu starts to participate in a music contest at MBC. It’s called Duet Song Festival. I started to like his voice, not in his first appearance, but after he sang a very powerful upbeat song called Pierrot Laugh At Us (http://jp.channel.pandora.tv/channel/video.ptv?ch_userid=gudtlr930&prgid=54581829&categid=38386927&page=2&ref=ch&lot=cthum2_1_2). And since I watched that performance, I started to re-watch Bonggu’s performance since episode 22 (With Shin Hyo Boem) and his lead from episode 31 to 37 and 40 to 44 and their last performance at episode 47 (King of Kings Special 2).

But what left a very great impression on me is not just his performance at the Duet song festival. He also got the opportunity to participate in a unique singing contest (also at MBC) called King of Mask Singer. He disguises himself with a Gangnam Swallow Nimble mask which actually pretty suit for him. He sang 3 magnificent songs:

Beautiful Night (아름다운 밤) along with Shindong of Super Junior; 

Place Where You Need to Be (니가 있어야 할 곳) and 

I Hate You (미워요) 

These three performances got very high praise from judges and he wins the title as 50th Generation of King of Mask Singer, beat 3 consecutive winners The 

Hoppang Prince (Hwanhee of Fly To The Sky).

I will let you decide is his voice is really that good with a song that he sing when he tried to defend the title at episode 102. He lost it anyway, but lots and lots of people start to acknowledge him and his voice. I can’t post his video or the MP3 coversion of his performance here. I’ll post it in my next post. Hope you enjoy my review.

Have a BEAUTIFUL DAY…

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My Music Mood

Back to the love of Boyce Avenue. 

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My Music Mood

Ini hati rasanya kaya lagi diaduk-aduk pake sekop semen. Ditusuk, dilempar, dipukul dan diratain sama tanah. Nggak peduli bentuknya kaya gimana, yang penting udah rata sama tanah, berarti “tugas” udah selesai.

Hhhh….

Seandainya menangis itu semudah langit menumpahkan air hujan ke dunia, pasti rasanya nggak bakal kaya gini.

2AM - 니 맘 다 알아 (I know your heart)

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Neri Per Caso (feat. Karima) - Street Life

Maybe I should make this thing a weekly routine. I want to share a song as my jam this week. This song titled “Street Life”. This song is sing by Neri Per Caso featuring Karima.

As you might know, Neri Per Caso is known as a very GREEEEEEEAAAAATTTT acapella group. First time I heard their song is when I was at primary school (around ‘95). I automatically fall in love with their ability to make beautiful voices with their mouth and harmonized it. Even though I didn’t follow their career, I still love to listen to their song.

Mostly, I don’t know what their song actually talks about. because their single launched in Italian (of course they did because they come from Italy). Only some of them were released in English. This song is one of that.

Maybe I can share the lyrics, so you can sing along while hitting that 'play’ button. Enjoy :)

STREET LIFE

by: Neri Per Caso (feat. Karima)

I play the street life, because there`s no place I can go
Street life - it`s the only life I know
Street life - and there`s a thousand parts to play
Street life - until you play your life away

You let the people see, just who you wanna be
And every night you shine, just like a super star
That`s how the life is played a ten cent masquerade
You dress, you walk, you talk
You`re who you think you are

Street life - you can run away from time
Street life - for a nickel or a dime
Street life - but you better not get old
Street life - or you`re gonna feel the cold

There`s always love for sale a grown-up fairy tale
Prince charming always smiles behind a silver spoon
And if you keep it young your song is always sung
Your love will pay your way beneath the silver moon

Street life - Street life
Street life - Street life

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Jason Chen
-INVISIBLE-

Ever felt so close, and yet you’re so far away

Ever went down the wrong, road

Well if i got to go back, there’s only one way

Is if you’re coming with me,

I’m waiting for you

I’ve been standing here with my arms out wide

but you just keep on passing me by,

I can change your life forever,

if you would just give me time

Baby love is staring right at you,

but to you I’m invisible

I can make your heart feel brand new

Do you even notice me at all?

It’s like I’m invisible..

Everyone’s heart is broken

Baby nowadays

Cold shoulder you’re frozen

zero degree

All of your love was stolen

I can replace, everything that’s missing

If you let me in

I’ve been standing here with my arms out wide

but you just keep on passing me by,

I can change your life forever,

if you would just give me time

Baby love is staring right at you,

but to you I’m invisible

I can make your heart feel brand new

Do you even notice me at all?

It’s like I’m invisible..

Let’s save each other from this cold, cold world

Promise I’ll go anywhere you wanna go

Seal it with a kiss on my lips lemme’ know I’m not invisible

eh-eh-eh runaway, runaway, runaway, runaway [8x]

Baby love is staring right at you,

but to you I’m invisible

I can make your heart feel brand new

Do you even notice me at all?

It’s like I’m invisible..

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Playlist

Hanya dengan melihat isi playlist, mood si pendengar bisa diidentifikasi dengan sangat baik (Mungkin begitu cara kerjanya Synapse Media Player) *Iyeeee… Gw lagi galau ╮(╯_╰")╭

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